Our song comes on and I panic, I grab my coffee and sit at a secluded table away from the teenagers that came here for their spring vacation.
“you put your arms around me and I believe that it’s easier for you to let me go…”
I begin breathing deeply and flashbacks hit me;
Our first date, when we held hands for the first time, my weekend visits to his place…
I don’t realize, but the tears are rolling down my cheeks and I turn away from the rest of the tables.
It’s been seven months since our breakup and I still tear up when that song comes on.
I loved him with my entire being.
I gave him my heart, body, mind and soul and I swear that if there was something else, I would have given him that as well.
The singer is singing the chorus and I mouth the words, remembering… injuring my heart because I want to feel this pain.
I loved him for 3 years. Three silent years till he noticed me for more than a random girl…for more than an acquaintance.
“I hope that you see right thru my walls, I hope that you catch me cause I’m already falling…”
It’s not easy to move on after loving someone without asking love in return. It isn’t, I repeat in my head.
Someone taps me on my shoulder and I look to my shoulder to see this beautiful little girl with the most breathtaking grey eyes.
She’s smiling her biggest smile and says “Whatever it is, it’ll pass. Don’t worry.”
I’m dumbfounded and before I get to say anything, she turns away and walks towards her mother, whose waiting by the door of the café.
The song ends and I wipe my tears.Meditating on what the little girl told me, I get up with my coffee in hand and head out the door.
- I just hope it isn’t gonna take longer - I think bitterly.