8|23|2012 8:31 P.m.
I won’t deny that here. Because this is the only (& I’m not lying) place I can actually be honest about these things.
I’ve been in New York this week (I’m on my way back now, but traffic is slow so I can write lol) and it’s been or rather was really good. This is what I needed, but for an odd feeling I decided to check his facebook since neither of us has deleted each other. So he had a status update yesterday in which he basically said he’d forever remember the tears in my eyes and the expression when he threw our memories of the year we spent together.
That cut me deep. Because no matter how much I deny it to everyone else, no matter how many times people see me smiling and just being bubbly; there’s a part of me, deep inside that revolves around the fact that he’s gone & for good.
I’m trying very hard. I just want this pain to be gone already and my heart completely healed…
- someone sits next to me while im on my dash: please no porn please no porn please no porn please no porn please no porn please no porn
:D this is just what I needed! I’ve only thought of him like (2) two times since I’ve been here and its only been for a brief moment & then something distracts me.
Today, my half brother will take me shopping!! So I’m super giddy about that lol.
It’s time for a new pair of Jordans & Toms ;)
Then I’ll go to China Town and Jamaica with an aunt. Omgg This is great. Lol
Well Sorry for not posting anything these few days, But I will now :)